Rekindling My Passion

Recently, I was feeling very unfulfilled and I could not figure out a way to raise my vibrations. I was sinking deeper and deeper in self-doubt and a feeling of inadequacy. What was I missing? Where was the obvious door that I was ignoring? It was a truly awful feeling to say the least. So I asked for answers. I scrolled down my social media looking for keys and all I could see were happy people following their passions. There are no coincidences. I wondered how I could become part of this seemingly exclusive group.

A few days later, I dreamt I had a baby. A little precious child. My baby, almost never cried and slept all the time; to the point that I even forgot to feed it for days. I woke up feeling confused and even more depressed. Was it my biological clock tugging at me? Almost all of my closest friends had a family or were at least trying. I, on the other hand, seemed more consumed with having a successful career and traveling the world. I always told whoever wanted to hear, that I was too selfish to have a kid. Plus I couldn't even take care of myself - who wants another burden? I had convinced myself. And now this dream. I was already a bad mother, even without a real child. It was traumatic.

I decided to think rationally about it and understand what the baby stood for. Then I realized, indeed, I had a baby, a passion I had neglected. Writing. More specifically blogging. I would think about it every now and again but I would never take real steps to making my dream of being a full time blogger a reality. That was it. I had figured it out. The baby was my blogging career. And just like that I was out of my funk. I became excited again. I started researching my options and most importantly, I started writing all over again.

I would get up from my bed in the middle of night, inspired to write or just brainstorm. It was about time you all heard from me again. So here I am. I am back.

I found my love back and I am not about to let it run away again. And until I am able to transition completely to doing this full-time, I am going to keep writing. One day at the time.

Love is the key...